doubting doubt

Hmmmm. Interesting. I've always thought of "doubt" as being more intellectual than emotional, but I suppose it can be either or both, depending on circumstances and temperament.
I, by inclination, am a doubter, which has resulted in a life of bouncing back and forth between belief and disbelief. It used to be that, as soon as I became confortably settled into a conviction, something (a thought or event) would upset it and I would drift back toward the opposite view.
This eventually grew very tiring.
Then I started thinking about the role of the "Will" in the religious life, and I finally understood that, since I had neither the intellectual or spiritual capacity to figure out these things, I would have to make a choice based on Ultimate Desire. What else is there when one has never had any kind of revelatory experience? I decided that perhaps I could never "prove" one way or another that God existed, but I had no doubt about the reality of my longing for Him to exist, and I chose to believe that that yearning was significant in itself.
I'm not sure if Will is the same thing as Intention....I'm still exploring these ideas.

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